i am so mad,so angry. mum is having 1 of her,dunno how to say, 1 of the time when her mental illness act up? first she start with telling me that my gran took her magazine. i quarrel with her,i told her that i'll be searching for it after dinner(cant i just have my dinner in peace?) then i found it under the table,she say i purposely put it there to start a quarrel so that my dad will record it down. WTF, my dad is at work how can he record it down, and she should look there at first. then i called her bitch in the middle of the quarrel. why, i was angry and that word came out of my mouth without knowing. elena, i know u'll be shaking ur head now but i really dun regard her as my mum. u may be saying how much she took care of me in the past few years. but i can tell u,she didn't. not because she dun want, it just that she is too busy with work and fighting with dad. all she did is torture us with her talking bout how my dad torture her(which is not true). i hate her,to the core. she dun fit to be my mother. for all this years,i had been worrying bout my family been tortured under her.
how i miss when i was young, when she was perfectly well, no mentally illness. we 1 family will always go out together,so happily. it all destroyed few years ago.
now my gran and mum is quarrelling. she is throwing sofa cushions around just to look for a newspaper which she believe that my gran hid it. i'm crying as i typed this out. can u imagine me alone,suffering,yet have to protect my family. stop it, u bitch. how i wish i could made myself disappear now??????????? shut up bitch....pls....pls...i feel like killing myself.

hahaha,i so random. btw this is JIAQI' 8:23 PM